Just today the immigration lady made me realise that I was giving inconsitant information in the immigration forms i.e. my education is finishing on 1999 and I started working fulltime in a company on 1998. So, it was kinda "blur" to her. Well, I bet some people will understand that it is indeed possible to persue your education fulltime and doing a job fulltime given the fact that the employer is flexible. My employer was way too flexible. I was in charge of the company that my employer was setting up. So, that gave me more benefits. Like, I really didn't have any hard and fast time table for my job. I used to goto office whenever I was free. I used to goto office in the evenings also and stayed in the office till 12 AM or even 2 AM. Thats of course when I had some jobs to finish. I remember many days staying back in the office cause it was too late and I had to come back to the office in the morning or goto university for classes. I used to sleep with all the servers and machines. Crazy, huh! Well, at that time I was full of motivation and youth. On top of that, my boss made sure that I feel comfortable. He even bought me a car. I was obviously paying for the car but with an interest free installment arrangement. Now, looking back to that state of my life, I really wonder, was it a good choice to leave the job. Well, sometimes when you have all the things in your life that you want, you still feel empty. In my case, I had all kind of benefits and even you can call it a dream job. But, the reason I left the job is completely moral. Yes, you can call it a "moral predicament". Also, I really wanted to experince working in other countries and see how does it feel to be a normal employee.

Nothing much happened in my boring life in the past 24 hours. Seems like, I am going to die of bordem. Office is the only exciting thing that I have. "Exciting" because it relates to my passion. Or else, maybe I won't be here breathing. Anyways, its really fun to realise and know that people shows interest at you whenever they see a potential benefit for themselves. I realised that today. Some people are just downright selfish. No matter, how much you brain wash them, that selfish dirt never goes away from their head. So, I am wondering now, should I treat these people as dirt also or not. Hell, I don't give a F*ck to them. They can go ssenhsifles ykcoc rieht ot noitacided a sa tohs gnineve rof me evah dna eeffoc toh ni sllab nikcuf rieht pid.

The SARS. Singapore government has gone lunatic on this. Today, I went to collect my renewed Employment Pass and they held my passport and asked me to come back after 2 and half hours instead of giving me the EP immediately. Aparently, the reason is, I went out of Singapore (to my own country) and came back by 6th of April. After a series of talk which I overheared from the immigration officers, I realised that they decided to do some digging out on me before they can issue me the EP. Not to mention, I had to fill out a SARS declaration form before I could even go into the counters. Its a good effort. Very very good effort. Actually, thats what makes me feel more safe living in Singapore. I heard in the TV yesterday that WHO said "If Singapore cannot control SARS, then nobody can!!!" Thats a very strong statement.

I will be watching Wrestle Mania 9 now. I like it cause it entertains me in a silly way. maybe my inner beast likes to watch it...:o (may be I wanna beat the s*it out of everyone who is lucky...)

Today in the afternoon, I went hystirical. I guess its the result of living alone. 26 years of my life, I never spent more than 1 or 2 hours alone except the fact that I was sleeping. I was always surrounded by people. People that loves me. People who would die for me. Although I used to spend most of my time in my room, every now and then I used to get my mum's febulous cooking treats, or maybe my nephew coming and asking something or maybe somebody screaming at someone downstairs or something or the other is happeing around the house or my friends/my loved ones kept me always busy with their attention and love. I guess that never made me feel what is loneliness, how ugly loneliness can be. I thought I was always alone and i can handle this... But thats wrong. I wasn't alone. Now, when I don't get to talk to anyone for about 72 hours, then I realise what treatment I got from those who loves me... I think I got to realise that I am helpless without them... Thats why maybe I went more lunatic today....

I think I am bored. :(

Morning realisation - yes, let me call this my morning relisation :). Right when I got up from sleep, I realised that I have only ONE reason to keep hanging on to this Lah Lah Land (Singapore).

Another day of my life ends. What have I achieved today? NOTHING!