While I was talking to my buddy Saif today, he made me realise something. Something that I would never really want to think about. That, "I am old". I am getting old. I am almost there to say "sayonara". While it seemed to me that he is just trying to ignite a good start for himself, I felt like I have already been there, done those. Back when I was in the university with him, when he was busy discovering the "wonders" of life, I was then thinking about how to become like those who zooooms on the road with their cars. Not that my father didn't have any car, or I was living a poor life, but, I had this "anger", this "passion" in me of doing something, of being someone, for owning something by myself... Maybe, I pushed myself toward the edge too much, and I never cared what was happening around me, because, I had to just reach there. But, now at this point of my life, I realise, I didn't do anything wrong, that was what I supposed to do. Maybe, I could have taken the easiest possible way that came to me and get there the easiest and quickest possible way. I didn't take those path (not that those path never came to me). I chose the hard path. I am in that path now. Maybe, in about 10 years of time, it might seem that I haven't achieved anything and proven useless. But, thats not what it would look like. As it says, everything is relative.

Now sitting here, looking at this small screen of my latptop (which is kinda cute), feeling the cool air all around me, in this fine apartment (fine enough for me) with all these latest gadgets around me, with all the surrounding people who respects me when they talk to me and seeing myself standing at a land that does not belong to my forefather I can say that "I achieved it". 'Cause, in this path of achievement I never accepted a single gesture of help from anyone. Yes, I am gratefull to my parents. If you compare that gratefullness against the responsibilities of every parents' toward their children, then I should call myself lucky. If they were not there, I wouldn't be here. But, thats my parents. They cannot be compared with "ANYONE". I think by now, you know what I am talking about. So I will call it a night and say the ultimate epigram that I am going to digitally engrave here:

I HAVE ACCOMPLISHED IT ALL WITH MY SKILLS AND ONLY MY SKILLS. HAVE YOU? ANALYSE THAT.

(Did that sound too vain, or I am just angry with those who gets it easily and pretends nothing happened?)